yeah, ive kinda been down in the dumps lately...ive been so confused...well, i have feelings for this guy...mark, and this is the 4th time ive dated him...i mean, i know my friends say that i'm "too young" to be in love, i really do believe it is...i mean ive liked him for 3 years and the feeling has never died down, if anything its gotten stronger...but the problem is that my friends dont seem to be to fond of him and this is the 4th time i've dated him...it seems that we date for a few months, then break-up and then realize we made a mistake...but this is the 4th time! i really do think its pathetic, i am not that blinded by love lol, but i cant help it, i love him...and i have been depressed and heart-broken since he dumped me the last time, so now that we are dating, ive been the happiest person alive! but, i still have that confusion in the back of my mind, that this is wrong, i keep telling myself im so stupid that i took him back when its been the 4th time...and my friends also dont like him to much...and ill admit, he isnt the most romantic person or one to show all his feelings, but i dont care...isnt love being able to accept their flaws, but still have that love for them? there are so many philosophies on love, i dont know what to do! anyone care to share some much needed advice?

ok, yeah its a little bit late for this but, hope everyone had a happy 4th of July!! i went down to the stadium with my friends and we sat so close to the fireworks, we had ash all in my hair!

*sigh* the best part was, my crush Mark came with us and as the fireworks were going off, we were holding hands and i was resting my head on his shoulders! ^_^ i loved it...so then after the fireworks were over he asked me to be his girlfriend! so we are officially dating!!! i love July 4th lol for 1 more reason now!!

<< i miss it!!

oops, havent updated for a while!

hmm, well i went on vacation about 3 weeks ago to London <3 ahh, i love it!

they dont say the letter Z, they say zed...its so cool! and the double decker buses are awesome!! yeah and there are some cute London boys! i dont know about some of u lol, but i dont think there is anything hotter than a British accent!!! *daydreams* hmm, what else...the clothes there are so cool, they have our kind of clothes, but also these far-out clothes that are ahead of our time...they were expensive tho! but i managed to get an outfit! ^_^

yep, so i came back to America haha about a week ago...its sad i dont know the specific dates, its what i love about summer back to my job and back to getting ready for college! which has its good points hehe!

P.S.~forgot to put earlier...watch a show called "I'm Alan Partridge" its so funny! and i found out a few days ago its on the BBC channel too! <3 so watch it! haha

yep, birthday was awesome!!!! thanks everyone for the replies ^_^ and i finally got my pics to show, danke schon six24!! yep

so, not much...except school is out, so i stayed up till 2 and good up at noon...*sigh* felt so good hehe...no homework, love it!

so, im done talking haha...

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